New Year Count Down

Three days after Christmas we have always celebrated my Mother's birthday and then 4 days after that it's the New Year! I am thankful for being blessed with the best Mother in the world for me. I admire her strength. I cherish her giving heart. I love her spirit. As I count down to the closing out of this blog, let me take the time to say -- I LOVE YOU MOM.

Ciao Y'all

NEW MOON

I must say WOW! Love stories are back with a vengeance. The trailers for about a million of them coming soon took close to a half hour to preview before the feature presentation. My "First Base" would fit in like an ACE. If someone can get me into Summit Entertainment for a pitch let me know. Seriously.

Taylor Lautner are you really dating now? WOW! To think I knew you when you where praying to book "Shark Boy..." You've come a long way and looking as though you have a long healthy career ahead of you.

I must admit, it took a while for me to venture across the street to sit for such a long time to watch New Moon. I wasn't bored or wishing I was somewhere else. The story is indeed a love story and very cute - maybe not the gruesome way the vampires were put to death - or the demonic look in Dakota Fanning's eyes - but otherwise cute. Taylor Lautner (Jacob Black in the movie) indeed held his own and basically carried this 2nd movie in the trilogy. I look forward to seeing the third installment.

Oh and...there are Barbie dolls and action figures available of this movie's heart throbs. Go figure.

Ciao Y'all

FINAL COUNTDOWN

Last week while on vacation I admitted humbly to myself that I am overloaded. There's family, work, l'Amore Intimo and my spiritual well being takes a beating. Too much going on all at one time and I am constantly tired. Gregorysm's and movie reviews are few and far between. The Dodgers are in the off season - that alone is depressing enough - and frankly keeping up with posting on this web log has become stagnant. The last entry was November 18, 2009.

All the above brings me to now. I will no longer update this blog "Troop 180 Productions" after the end of the year. December 31, 2009 will be the last post. I have enjoyed posting here, it has been a place to experiment, to grow, to find the path I should follow. Its purpose has been served. It is now time for me to concentrate on building all that is l'Amore Intimo.

The writing, ranting and venting will continue, but on the l'Amore Intimo web log. The sign off will change from Ciao Y'all to Dream Sweet but the sentiment will remain. So enjoy the last few weeks of my more personal Troop 180 Productions blog and stay with me through l'Amore Intimo in the New Year.

Thanks for reading.

Dream Sweet

MOVIE REVIEWS TO COME

To be reviewed in the near future is THIS IS IT, LAW ABIDING CITIZEN, MEN WHO STARE AT GOATS, and 2012. Great great excellent great or not. You'll see it right here by this time next week.

Ciao Y'all

What Time is It in China?

Why does China - as large as it is, has only one time zone that they recognize. Is that the standard always or was that only during the Olympics, or do I really care and have no idea of what I am talking about? All I know is about here and now. Here I am in my wonderful home, and now I am typing this blog. Will I ever get to China and see all the mass producing factories? Will I ever sell out and ship l'Amore Intimo to China for production? Here and now that's a no -- later down the road who knows.

I'm tired, that's what I know.
Ciao Y'all

My Prerogative

I think Bobby Brown and Britney Spears got something really right. It's tiresome at best when all I do is work work work -- 45 hours away from home and l'Amore during the day and then trying to catch up with the business that has captured my heart that is l'Amore Intimo the rest of the time, and of course everything else. My issue is the so called constructive criticism (that's more subjective than not) you are suppose to allow and accept as law, because someone has said it, makes a strong clanging noise when I am trying to juggle everything to achieve my goals.

I think instead of getting upset with others wanting to tell me what to do but never around when I need help in getting things done, I will consider "it's my prerogative". Listen up from YouTube.

Ciao Y'all

Dodgers vs Phillies NLCS Game 5

It seems like only yesterday when the season opened. I was happy to have Manny on my fantasy team. My team was in first place for the longest time. Then Manny was sidelined for 50 games and Buddy stepped up. My Juan Pierre - I was able to pick him up for my fantasy team and life was good. Buddy maybe wasn't hitting the homeruns that Manny hit every now and then - but Buddy will always be my favorite player outside of my own kid. Then Manny came back and things stayed at an even keel, but the Dodgers were still the best team in the league - until tonight.

My Boys in Blue, my Baby Blues, my Buddy, my Dodgers laid their season to rest tonight with a 4 to 10 loss to the Phillies giving them the NLCS. Now I can debate about who they should trade during the off season and try to afford season tickets for next season. And in case you doubt -- I LOVE MY BOYS IN BLUE! May you all have a great off season full of learning and growing and joy.

Ciao Y'all

Dodgers vs Phillies NLCS Game 4

Picture this... just sitting relaxing after a long day in the office and a refreshing revival at church and of course watching the recording of the game. I was pretty happy with the 4 to 2 score - Dodgers. Pretty happy until I got on the internet and on the yahoo home page there's a post "wild game ends in Phillies win". All I can say is dagnabbit.

Here's a smoke signal boys -- It's do or die tomorrow and for the rest of the series. If any team can pull it out, it's the Dodgers.

Ciao Y'all

Dodgers vs Phillies NLCS Game 3

All I can say is that my Boys in Blue need a revival. Even though my mind was center on the speaker tonight at my church's revival and not on my Dodgers, I couldn't wait to get out of that crowded parking lot and home to watch the recording of the game.

I started the dvr and the recording was in the 5th inning. I was almost upset until I saw the score 0 to 6, Phillies. WOW. And as I forward threw the Phillies ups and watched the awkwardness of my Dodgers at bat I wished I was back at church. A cold night in Philly while I sit comfy here in LA proved fatal for the Dodgers who lost in this game 0-11. This series will more than likely go to 7 but playing against the Phillies will prepare them for the World Series.

Still love you Blue!

Ciao Y'all!

Dodgers vs Phillies NLCS Game 2

Buddy was the pinch runner who tied up the game in the bottom of the 8th! I'm watching the game late because I missed it while I was sitting in the fluorescent lit office all day. But the DVR works and I can forward commercials.

It's the top of the 9th and Broxton is on the mound trying t get the save. I know the outcome of the game already - my mom couldn't wait to tell me. My pride is how packed the house is this late in the game. Usually there's a mass exodus at the 7th inning stretch. But this is the playoffs and these are our Dodgers. GO BLUE!

Dodgers win 2 to 1

Ciao Y'all

Dodgers vs Phillies NLCS Game 1

Win or lose I still love my boys in blue -- A LOT! No one can't fault them for coming ready to play, because they were. This proven by The Loney homer and the Manny 3 run homer. My only issue is the kid on the mound. Things fell apart in the 5th inning on the mound, and the boys had to fight back to almost come back 6 to 8. There's always tomorrow boys!

Oh and my Mom thinks James Loney is a cutie patootie. To that i say...

Ciao Y'all

Double Tap!

Zombieland was one of those "check your brain at the theater door", or a "I feel much dumber now" flick. And can I honestly say, despite the bloody mess I had a fun night at the movies. Constant laughter throughout the movie hall. I think this could become the next Rocky Horror Picture Show.

I have always liked Woody Harrelson - he played this wild character named Tallahassee - and it was good to see him on the big screen again. I'm sure it was shot at a very reasonably low to mid budget price and will make plenty at the box office. I'd go see it again if someone asked and I don't like scary movies.

My recommendation is go see it tomorrow. It's free popcorn Tuesday.

Ciao Y'all

Dodgers vs Cardinals Post Season Game 3

All the Dodger Fans in the house say ho!. Announcers from the game said Furcal was razzing Ramirez in the locker room today - telling him he was tired of seeing infield hits by Manny, and told him to go out there and hit like a man. Thank God somebody finally said it! Manny finally looked like Manny today after such a long time. I'll take it! Dodgers took it too. The boys in blue beat the Cardinals today 5 to 1, taking the NLDS. Now on to the NLCS and then the world series!

Go Blue

Ciao Y'all

Dodgers vs Cardinals Post Season Game 2

Bottom of the 9th - 2 outs - Buddy (Juan Pierre) just scored from 2nd base off a hit from Belliard to tie up the score!!! I thought the game was coming on at 6PM but it came on at 3. That's ok because it's recording all Dodger baseball. Back to the game. Bases loaded - Mark Loretta up to pitch hit - he has not let us down all year!! Dodgers win it! 22 last at bat wins this season. My town!

GO BLUE!

Ciao Y'all

Dodgers vs Cardinals Post Season Game 1

Matty came up second after Furcal, in the bottom of the 1st and hit the most perfect 2 run homer! That's when I knew the boys were here to play. And play they did all the way through the 9th inning. Final score 5 to 3.

Who showed up tonight to play? Everyone!
GO BLUE!

Ciao Y'all

My Dodgertown

The Dodgers are back in town tomorrow for the post season opener! Since I won't be in Dodgertown I will enjoy the game in my favorite front row seat. And this web log will be dedicated to the post season for my Boys in Blue!

I love the Dodgers!

Ciao Y'all

Definite Chill in the Air

Maybe it's the temperature outside that causes the temperature of people on their insides to rise of fall. It's a definite chill in the office today.

But on the lighter side of my personal spectrum, a big 8 legged freak just sauntered across my path. I stepped on it but the grooves on my shoe's sole allowed its escape. It honked in a corner for a breath and now its making its way back across my path. Its actually a black widow! Eek! And then it was no more.

That was exciting. Now back to the silent chill.

Ciao Y'all

Get Back to The Magic

Today is Friday and Baseball still matters. My boys in blue had a day off yesterday and I have to admit, I needed that day off right with them. Torre is working out every scenario and nothing has been doing to trick these past couple of games. I’m feeling maybe the season has been to long but I hope and pray they get back to the magic we as Dodgers’ fans have become accustomed to seeing. Without it, my question would be - how long can they hold on to the post season?

I really don’t want to be so analytical when it comes to baseball and especially Dodgers baseball. Ultimately I would prefer to sit and relax - wind down from my day with the Dodgers. So I will leave the sport commentating alone and simply root root root for the home team.

Ciao Y’all

Dog Day Afternoon - Or I Must Have Been Bored

On Stuff You Should Know there is an episode on How do Dogs Perceive Time. I knew how my own crazy dog perceived time, but not dogs in general so I thought it would be interesting to listen up and learn. Not that a dog could actually give the speakers (2 men) any first hand knowledge. These guys were dog owners, which helps. The ultimate conversation ended up being about conditioning.

I know that’s true because my crazy dog - like alot of other dogs - knows exactly when to expect me to walk in the door. I don’t usually have a set routine or schedule but lately for the past 5 weeks, I have had a routine and my little fur ball is always waiting for me when I get home. The question is to me, does she wait there the whole time or instinctively know when to come to the front door to wait for her Mommy.

Although this podcast didn’t lead me to want to listen to any more ranting on dog behavior it did produce this question my my mind... Wouldn’t it be something grand if we could get the same kind of gratifying loyalty from our human loved ones?

Ciao Y’all

Can't Go This Way and That Way

Have you ever felt like you are being pulled in two different directions? You’re somewhere in the middle hoping that neither one of your arms gets pulled off. I’m there.

There’s the office and there’s the other office. The office - those are the ones who are only for a time. The other office - those are the ones who are for a season, and the boss is there, and my pay comes from there. So, that should be a no brainer. Right? I guess. Sure. But the office - I have to look at them daily. The other office - not, they call when they need me for something.

What is she talking about - you ask. Thing is, I really can’t say, other than this... census office caper 2010. Yay. Life is too short for all the drama. I really would rather be sewing panties.

And this would be why Gregory tells me every day I am finished. The other day he took my picture of me sitting on the couch looking finished. Maybe I am finished.

Ciao Y’all

Where Have All My Dodgers Gone?

Maybe it's hard to keep up with your own self when you're winning. All I know is for the past few games - against the Pirates - the Dodgers have not been all present or accounted for. Probably best I was at the office this morning for the beat down they got. Just turned off the rebroadcast of the game in the bottom of the 8th with the 10 to 0 score.

What's wrong guys? You're going to the playoffs but throwing it away in these final games? Say it ain't so Joe.

Ok, I'll stop being so dramatic. But just so you know - I still love my Dodger Blue!

Ciao Y'all

Dodgers Headed for the Post Season - DUH!

Tonight's Dodger win over the Pirates clinched a ticket to the post season. COOL. But tell me something that wasn't obvious. They only have the best pitching staff in the league. They also have the baby blues - Ethier, Kemp, Loney, Russell. They have Hudson, Casey Blake and Manny. But best of all they have buddy - my buddy Juan Pierre. The player who gives his all every single day for love of the game. And a bench full of extremely talented players.

Playoff bound?! Did you doubt? I didn't.

I love the DODGERS!

Ciao Y'all

Depression Sucks

Today I spoke with a gentleman who has probably retired from many careers, but considers his life not to be over and works wherever he gets a chance. He told me also that when he hit his 40’s he felt he was being kicked out of a job he had worked so hard to move to the top in, and this caused him a great deal of stress. He considered himself successful. He had a wonderful career and his family owned a business in southern California. But then when it came tumbling down he had to re-invent himself. He said the job he was performing no longer needed him and when he came to terms with that he got a hold of the slight depression he was suffering because of it.

His story takes me a few years back -- I read a book entitled “Living With the Black Dog”. Depression was referred to by William Churchill who suffered from it, as the black dog. It was a story about a loving wife who considered herself lucky to be married to a loving husband and raise their family. But one day it all changed. Her husband lost interest in everything, including, and she felt especially, her. She would find him sitting in dark rooms and sometimes crying. He seemed, to her, to be always short tempered. They eventually got help for her husband but she oftentimes felt as though she was losing her mind and depressed as a result of his depression.

I read the book in about an hour and immediately sent the author an email of thanks. I was forever grateful to her for sharing her story and I felt that now I had hope to deal with the depression that a friend of mine was suffering with. This did not cure my friend and the relationship ended by his choosing, but what I did learn was that this condition is real.

Depression is a real horrible disease that feeds off itself. It doesn’t get better with time if not treated, especially in a person who may be more sensitive than someone else. Seek help if you are suffering with depression. Be careful with the prescription drugs that a doctor might want to prescribe to treat the symptoms, but can make you sick in other ways. Don’t recluse yourself - staying in your room under the blankets with the blinds closed. Talk about your feelings to someone you trust. Don’t be fearful of counselors who are there to listen and help you dig deeper into your own mind frame. As hard as it may be, find something you love to do, and do it. Most important remember that some people don’t and won’t ever understand that depression is real and can cause real physical symptoms. So don’t blame someone for telling you to just get over it. Pull yourself together, everyone has problems. Have a cup of chamomile tea. These things could possibly help the one suggesting them but everyone is different and healing comes in different ways.

Ciao Y’all

This American Life

Today as I was office monitor I listened to the September 20, 2009 podcast of this American Life. It was the real story behind the new Matt Damon movie, The Informant. Either I was extremely bored or I really found an interest in this bipolar informant. All I know is - I'm going to see this movie and write a review.

The Dodgers are beating the Nationals right now 15 to 2 at the bottom of the 9th. Gotta love those boys in blue!

Ciao Y'all

Behind Right Field

That's where I spent my afternoon. In the all you can eat pavilion. At the end of the game the whole area was a messy mess, but we were having fun fun fun, Trying to start the wave heckling the right fielder of the Giants #2 Winn, and cheering on the winning Boys in Blue.

It was a great day!

Ciao Y'all

Where Are My Dodgers?!

I searched for my Dodgers and I can't find them. I have settled here for the night with my cupcake from Sprinkles and remote in hand, posed to watch the Dodger's game. Well it's not on, and I can't find it, and don't know how I missed it or why the stupid DVR did not record the game. But tomorrow I get to go to my favorite little leaguer game at 8AM and then off to Dodgertown! A double header!

I told you baseball matters.

Ciao Y'all

Dreams

Last night I had a very real dream. You know one of those dreams when you wake up and swear this dream really happened. I used to have dreams about my high school sweetheart after he died. These dreams were so real that I would wake up in tears because I knew that no matter what I couldn't bring him back now that I was awake.

My question to you is, when you have a very vivid dream, do you take it seriously? Are your dreams only meant as night time entertainment or are those real dreams placed in your sub-conscious mind to tell you something? Let me know your thoughts.

Ciao Y'all

What Do You Do?

Don’t know what’s worse - having to write a letter to the Commanding Naval Officer to ask for assistance collecting support (which includes arrears) from a retired officer or hoping that this person will one day smell the coffee and send what’s owed. I know you’re thinking it’s all the same. Yeah that’s true. That’s why instead of being inactive - sitting and hoping and waiting and turning blue holding my breath - I decided to be proactive and write the letter.

My question to you -- If someone owes you a lot of money personally or business, how do you go about collecting it? I’d like to hear the different opinions on this, and I am sure someone reading and commenting could possibly help someone else. Thanks.

Ciao Y’all

Doesn't laugh at distasteful jokes

"There is not a racist bone in my dad's body" said Alan Wilson, an Irag veteran who is running for state attorney general in South Carolina. "He doesn't even laugh at distasteful jokes. I won't comment on former President Carter, because I don't know President Carter. But I know my dad, and it's just not in him."

This is the quote from Alan Wilson, son of US Rep. Joe Wilson, after his outburst during a speech by President Obama. Apparently Alan Wilson felt the need to defend his father after former President Jimmy Carter was quoted saying he thought the outburst was based on racism due to the fact that - as he put it - “There is an inherent feeling among many in this country that an African-American should not be president”.

Hold the milk truck!

What’s going on here? I just want an affordable health plan. Like everything else I am getting bombarded with calls and emails from health insurance companies wanting me to take my uninsured self and put it into their over-priced hands. The prices are lowering but not enough. I don’t think any one person should have to pay more for health coverage than they do for car insurance -- and don’t start raising those prices either!. I don’t get sick $250 a month worth of coverage. The cheapest is a tad below $200 and that co-pay is extremely ridiculous. So as I sit here uninsured and pray that every day I will remain healthy, they battle over issues of race.

I believe President Carter has a point and made it well. I also believe Alan Wilson’s thinks his parents did raise them to “...respect everyone regardless of race”. But one bit I noticed while he was on the defense for his father - Alan Wilson is quoted saying “He doesn’t even laugh at distasteful jokes”. Is that kind of like those who say -- I have a lot of minority friends? To which I say, if they’re indeed your friends why do you see color (minority), and if Joe Wilson doesn’t laugh at distasteful jokes - why does he stand there and listen to them without taking a stand against them as being wrong?

And let me just acknowledge a comment from one of my readers - who was “anonymous”. This comment was posted and I did not make it public because it had nothing to do with the post about my winning Dodgers, but maybe it can pertain to this. This reader said “Isn’t that just like the pot calling the kettle black”. DUDE I have no idea when it comes to a fan supporting their team, but maybe for this post, and to that I will respond...

MAYBE SO - but it’s my blog - write your own and don’t cower behind “anonymous”.

Ciao Y’all

To Be Or Not to Be - Now that's a Gregorysm

What to do when your child says they want to resign from show biz? Let them. Let them do it. Let them call their agent and book themselves out forever. Look at Joaquin Phoenix -- he actually had to sit down and talk with his colorful agent about his decision not to act any more. I would have hated to hear that conversation and thankfully I wasn’t the person to talk to her (because I know her) after he gave her that bit of news. She cussed me out over the phone for just calling the office to confirm an appointment after Ms Dunst left her agency for bigger deals.

When your show biz kid, grows out of the running here and there to auditions and they’re not booking any way - even if they are, let them quit. Yes, we as parents possibly do know what’s best, but it’s only best for us - our decision - and one day they will find their own way or not. But don’t let them get away with acting like a grown up by making the decision and then acting like a child by asking you to tell their agent. Nope - that’s their last gig - let them have it. They want to take control of their own life, then let them have the responsibility that goes with that decision. This also goes for their car insurance that you, like I am still paying.

No harm or foul - it’s just gregorysms.

Ciao Y’all

To Say Thank You

I wrote a letter of thanks to my father’s widow. You might say - that’s my step-mother, and I would have to say - she never acted like it, so no. But I did receive a gift in the mail from her and as she wrote, the spirit of my dad. That’s kind of spooky, but okay. Any way I was thankful for the gift and I wanted to write her a thank you letter.

I guess the letter is longer than I intended - my writing teacher would probably interject here “what else is new” - not funny. I wasn’t pithy actually. I recapped for her and the spirit of my dad, our lives here, since neither showed much interest when he was alive. I hope she gets a glimpse of the experiences that they’ve missed, and not feel regret, but maybe reach out more to those they hold dear and should hold dear before it’s too late. She’s made a good start, and I can appreciate that very much.

Ciao Y’all

"No one forgets the truth, Frank, they just get better at lying"

Out of the mouth of April Wheeler played by Kate Winslet to her husband Frank played by Leonard Dicaprio in Revolutionary Road.

We all should know that as the truth. I have learned there is one thing for sure about that any liar will do - that’s lie. It’s habitual.

The Wheelers’ story is quite typical. Boy meets girl. Girl falls in love with boy. Boy and girl marry. Now husband and wife still youthful and full of hopes and dreams until... Girl gets preggers by mistake. Baby 1 comes along, then baby 2 to make sure the first one wasn’t a mistake. Life happens. Routine. Stepford? Maybe, but it’s still a rut race instead of the rat race. Husband has an affair. Wife suggests “let’s move out of the picket fenced life I wanted - I’m bored with it, and you don’t seem interested in us anymore”. “Let’s just go away - to Paris. Live there”. Wife convinces husband this is what needs to be done and so they plan. They buy airline tickets. Put the house on the market. Prepare the kids. Pack. Tells the guys at the office.

But wait...

Husband still having affair. Wife tells him she’s preggers again, but can take care of it before 12 weeks. Husband is strangely content. He’s gotten some kudos at the office for a project well done. A pat on the back. An offer of something better at work. Tells wife of his indiscretion but it’s over. She actually takes it strangely well. Her focus is still on Paris. Husband decides that they can’t move and uses the pregnancy as an excuse. Wife says let's have the baby in Paris. Husband already settled in his thinking, say no can do. Wife has a one night stand with the neighbor. Has a break down, then seemingly relents, sends husband off with a wonderful breakfast, kids off to the neighbors, and heads to the bathroom with the pan and tube. Wife aborts baby and dies. Husband miserable. Neighbors talk. Life goes on.

See, just like any typically stifled life. Revolutionary Road was very cliched and just plain old sad. The setting reminded me of the quaintness of the SCV or Stepford. Nothing bad ever happens and life is always good. But what’s really behind the closed doors of communities like this are the same stories behind other communities but they have been and are constantly being swept under the carpet and then judge when revealed.

Although I would not want to feel depressed again by seeing this film a second time, I recommend it if you like dry, hopeless stories that are thought provoking and lend to your understanding why you should never behave in such a manner.

Ciao Y'all

Movie still courtesy of imdb.com

Here's What Sucks

There are only 18 more game left in the regular season for the Dodgers. Here's the consolation - They'll be a part of the boys of October!

I can't say enough about how proud I am of the Dodgers this season. I love my boys in blue. There are so many different winners on the team. I define winner as someone who gives all that they have every day. A winner know the competition - and the competition is themself.

Two years ago when the news of acquiring Joe Torre was made known, a hater told me and another Dodger fan not to think the Dodgers would do anything more than lose just because they got Torre. Well - Mr. Man - from Utah - we're L.A., we love the Dodgers win, place or draw. Oh, and eat your heart out because my boys of summer are headed into the fall! Now I must go to register for an opportunity to purchase playoff tickets. WOW...

Ciao Y'all

She was naked in your hotel room?!

A question any wife would want cleared up immediately from her husband who was being questioned about a crazy bitch overdosed in his hotel room bed. Dog house? Well beyond that.

I have to admit, I waited for this movie ”Obsessed” to come out on dvd. Wasn’t a movie I wanted to take my favorite little leaguer to see, even though I tell him often that women are the devil. Don’t send me letters ladies - you know what I mean. Guys - remember Samson in the Bible - sometimes get blind sided (literally) by an enchanting temptress. The play on word in the movie actually. This temptress was the office temp. Funny. Good writing. When I decided to download it from itunes and I had a hard time due to my very obsolete computer system and had to reboot it before I could get the download, I thought maybe for a sec that perhaps I didn’t need to see it. I saw it, and it is a good movie. A bit week at the top of the third or the bottom of the second - and very cliche, but good.

My question to you is -- is it ever okay for a married person (man or woman) to flirt in any kind of way, innocently or not with someone of the opposite sex (presuming you’re straight)?

My brother thinks this guy in the movie did nothing wrong. My mother thinks otherwise. After viewing I think the guy is typical making it cliche. With his head fogged by the temptress's tears. Oh cry my a river. Once i was told that i made some woman (I use the term loosely) cry, and frankly all I could do was say boo hoo hoo. I don’t play that. Time is of the essence and life is too short to waste it on anyone who doesn’t make you/me a priority but rather an option. So I will speak my mind. And I don’t believe it’s okay for a committed or married couple to percolate elsewhere as long as they’re drinking at home. That’s bull. I say, if you don’t start something there won’t be nothing. Ignore the wiles of the evil one who comes like a thief in the night to steal, kill, and destroy.

Off my soap box now. I thought Beyonce Knowles did a wonderful job, not only the ass-kicking scenes but all round. She is growing in this craft. Kudos. Idris Elba was also very good. And the temptress, I feel sorry for her, because she played that role so convincingly that she is probably sneered at alot from the public who have a hard time separating a movie character and your true character.

I recommend the movie highly, you may learn something.

Obsessed

Ever been obsessed over someone, about something? Obsession is always more than it should be, but is it ever good. Like in business. Should you be obsessed with building your business to avoid failure? Or will you in that obsession lose your first love - that is why you fell in love with the idea of being in business. Will it become routine and too auto-driven if you're obsessed and lose the passion that once was? All good questions - hope I get some good answers.

Today I watched about an hour of the Beyonce Knowle film "Obsessed". I have about 40 more minutes to watch before I can write a review. But stay tuned tomorrow.

Ciao Y'all

You are not welcome here.

The tagline from the movie that I decided to go straight from work to see yesterday afternoon. I had gotten a glimpse into the flick from a friend who saw it and didn't like it. I like a good alien movie every now and then so I thought I would use my free ticket to go see it.

Here's what I thought of it. I should have saved my ticket. It was a yukky feel to the cinematography. Maybe that was the point. The acting wasn't bad or good, it just kind of was. The aliens called prawns had a fetish with cat food and I'm not sure what that was all about. There was a lesson or message trying to come through but it fell short of just mindless matinee material. I didn't really mind sitting there watching this film that someone worked hard to write and get produced, but next time I'll listen closer to my friend's review and save my free pass.

Go see it if you like -- can't think of why you should go see it.

Ciao Y'all

Movie photo from imdb.com 09

Legend

Today I went straight from the office watch to the movies with my favorite little leaguer - soon to be big leaguer. There was a trailer for a new flick called LEGEND. I am interested in seeing how in the world they will justify the blasphemy from this one. I would love to read the script if someone knows where I can get a copy before the release.

Good news is anyone not left behind won't have to be concerned with the Legend. And that should be a big sigh of relief.

Tomorrow I will review the movie that we saw today. District 9 -- no comment right now.

Ciao Y'all

I Think too Much

The next person that tells me that is going to get a cookie. Have you ever been told you think too much? Like it's a bad thing. My question is do I think too much or do you not think enough? See how that works?

Most often when someone tells you that you think too much it's because they don't really want to hear your thoughts. Maybe your thoughts don't matter to them. Or maybe your thoughts are well beyond their own thinking. But don't stop thinking -- as that would be stupid. 

The last person who told me I think too much was today. And when I asked if that were a bad thing she quickly remarked - no, but I mean you worry too much about things. And all I could say was is it thinking or worrying? Or perhaps I may just be telling you what's on my mind, which isn't worrying but talking to someone who should want to hear my thoughts because I listen to their thoughts all the time. 

May I then conclude that thinking is not a bad thing, and it doesn't mean you are a worry wort. The world needs great thinkers. People who don't care to listen to your thoughts are just not that in to you. hey are more likely just plain ol' selfish. In order to achieve a thing you must conceive a thing. It's not the thinks that you think, it's the thinks that you do said a wise rugrat. Think and do. It's a good thing.

Ciao Y'all.

Wiped Clean

My computer I wiped clean today and started it from the beginning of the start up disk. Everything important was saved on my thumbdrive or my portable drive - so no worries. I did lose all my bookmarks - maybe for the best, I'll find again the ones I really need.

The machine is running better, stronger, faster, and that's mission accomplished. I can even play dvd's again. Now Ii can order those Project Runway dvd's for seasons 1-5 and enjoy them. I think doing the challenges will be great training for me as a designer to build my technical skills for designing. The Writer's Boot camp honed my technical skills in writing - the talent and artistry were innate.

Hats off to a better computer that I can possibly get another good year or two out of. Today was a good day.

Dream Sweet

Troop 180 Productions -- The Purpose

Where did it come from? Troop 180 was the tile of my first screenplay. Nothing uniquely original about the title, and perhaps I was taking the lazy way out. I had to get my screenplay idea/premise done for my writing class and the idea of writing a piece about a troop of girl scouts derived from finding an idea that I could sell for one of my 8x10's to star in. So troop was a must. 180 came from the idea that every main character goes through - or should go through a 180 degree turn around in their life, thinking, yada yada... Productions came after the initial "film" making grew into wanting to have my own production company Hence Troop 180 productions is here because my first title for this blog offended a few biddies - and I'll leave it at that.

Looking for a purpose for this blog since I have been dragging when it comes to posting lately and concentrating more on the l'Amore Intimo blog. The purpose may be just to air the every day laundry. Writing down the bones. Today I'll start with this question to ponder and I always will give my overly though out suggested answer.

There are days when I proudly admire "WOW my kid acts just like me"! And then there are the other days when I am forced to admit "Gee, I don't know where this kid gets that crap from". Isn't it funny how nature plays a large role in how we all act, until it doesn't?

Speaking here of how my mother always said "it's in the genes" and if someone possessed the darkside of a parent's genes show would admonish them to "flight the feeling". Today when Gregory came in whining about his key missing must be due to the fact that I wash his clothes, I didn't want to hear the nonsense, and I also invited him to wash his own clothes for now on. The arrogance and disrespect and demanding that the whole world is wrong because of something I have done wasn't going to play today. You'd have thought it would have ended at that, but no. This arrogant used to be the baby went on the ask me for a favor. To which I thought to myself "good luck". Instead of telling him completely off I just said that he could do that for himself.

As he enjoys his time with his girlfriend in the other room - who is oblivious to the strife that occurred only minutes before she came over - I sit here writing this entry and hoping to get some advice from more seasoned veterans. My mother has informed me that I have allowed my children to talk to me disrespectfully. I don't recall allowing any sort of bad or disrespectful behavior from any of my kids.

And, if it's in the genes I'm thinking you have to remember to consider before you get married and procreate that your character genes will only be half of what your children inherit. Think clearly before you make that choice. How does your boyfriend, girlfriend, future spouse treat his/her parents? How does he relate to kids in general? Does he/she show you respect all the time - not just when someone is looking? I'm on my soap box now. Very important question to all single parents. Does the person you are considering allowing into your family love you -- all of you which includes your child(ren)? Does this person get jealous because you have a life with your child(ren) first?

Ask honest questions and get honest answers. Pray for discernment. Most important - the posts here won't always be this deep and unapologetic. There will be lighter times.

Still signing off the same.
Ciao Y'all

The Used to be The Baby

This blogspot has been kicked to the curb -- No it hasn't, but I'm sure it feels that way. Let's just say I've been on summer hiatus. If any of my readers are still reading, I am here and I ain't going nowhere. I do want to give this spot more of a purpose. Not as much thinking Julie & Julia, but something. Maybe it's just enough to thoroughly define all of the gregorysm's out there - from Gregory and others like him. Maybe adventures in sitting and feeling unproductive in an office but being blessed to be very productive at the same time personally. Maybe it's about the struggle of getting selected to complete on a game show.

I'll find it - and bring it to you, but until then I will keep posting when the spirit moves me. Always feel free to check in on lamoreintimo.blogspot.com. It's a good thing.

Ciao Y'all

BACK ON THE JOB

Just when I thought it was safe to sew my new design for the Bridal collection - the cell phone burped ( a no ring sound). I don't answer. Then the house phone rings - I ignore that one too. Checked the messages later that day. That was last Monday - a week ago. The message was from a not number I didn't recognize, hence why it did not ring on my cell phone. But there were two messages from the (INSERT HORROR MUSIC HERE) Census Bureau!

I swore to call them back the next day -- if they called me again.

The next day came. I breezed through the 8 o'clock hour, and just about half past the 9 o'clock hour that burp sound again. I did not answer it, I may seem anti-social by now to you, but I'm not. I was honestly trying to work on l'Amore Intimo. Then the house phone, and I thought it was time to confront the inevitable - I answered. To make this long story short...I'm back. I knew I should have sewn quicker. It's full time and in the office, not the scary trails like before. Maybe it won't be adventures in canvassing, but it will be adventures in something since I have two collections for l'Amore Intimo to debut by November.

Oh well. I consider this a blessing none the less.

Ciao Y'all.

The Day After Dodgertown

Today it's a hazy, cloudy day, a sit and watch "Project Runway" season 5 marathon because you have 50 million projects of your own to do and can't see past cutting out the design - kind of day.

But last night...
ROCKED!

Baseball does matter! My favorite little leaguer and I made ourselves comfy in Dodgertown last night! He had a Dodger Dog. I had nachos and garlic fries. We had cotton candy and peanuts and lemonade and a great time! Russell Martin hit a grand slammy just as I was taking a picture of the field. I think I got it. Cool. The Dodgers beat the Cubs, 7 to 2. Those are the best days ever.

Now back to "Project Runway" - I could so win this show - and completing the designs I'm working on.

Ciao Y'all

A Day After Gregorysms Day

This one can't go untold, because it had our whole table laughing out loud in BJ's.

As Gregory - the constantly finished off one - was sitting quietly listening while his sister Kelli was running her mouth about this new guy, then said something about taking a day off from communicating with the guy - Gregory remarked out of nowhere

"Whoa - I just got dizzy from the amount of ignorance from this table."

Since everyone knew he was referring to his sister, who he loves dearly - it was quite funny. What can you say? He's Greg. He checked into his new school today. Cal State LA. He's a hard hard worker, and smart too.

My birthday was special yesterday.

Ciao Y'all

Summer Ending Too Soon

As I posted on the wall of my Facebook, I am not thoroughly sure this is the most wonderful time for the year. I kind of like summer, and appreciate it a lot more now that my favorite little leaguer is headed back to school and won't be home to thread that dang serger for me. That machine is el diablo sometimes. I took for granted during the years of home school how much I would miss him when he was in school.

School sucks. Okay not really, but if the truth be know, I'd rather have my kid home with me enjoying the short childhood years. But I will herald him back to school on this Thursday and work hard while he is away so the hours will swiftly pass. I will champion him to embrace his elective - not art this semester. I will enjoy every moment of my time spent with him. Every parent should be able to say these things.

Enjoy life. Embrace love. Capture moments.

Ciao Y'all

The Biggest Exhibition

Yeah I missed yesterday gregorysms - but not actually, as I was fortunate enough to spend four hours with the chap as I re-twisted his locks. I don't get paid enough for this stuff.

Watching of course the Dodgers game. listening to Chick promo about the sleepover at Dodgers stadium on August 14th - Mr Gregory laughed and announced --

"You get to pay $100 to have the worst sleep of your life and in the morning you will be a part of the biggest exhibition ever!"

When you think about it that way - it kind of does sound pretty silly. And worst of all, the Dodgers won't even be there.

Ciao Y'all

Dodgertown

A fun time tonight at Dodgers' stadium outside of the 17 to 4 victory over the Brewers - there was a runner on the field. Probably saw a friend of his on the other side of the stadium from where he was sitting and thought the shortest route was of course - the field. KCAL 9 didn't show the perp but Chick commentated it well enough and I'm guessing the poor guy was thrown out and asked never to return. The poor guy probably lost a bet and that was the consequence.

Any way - How 'bout them Dodgers! Possibly the hardest thing about winning - being in first place - is the expectation to remain in first place. The boys in blue don't seem too fazed by this though - they keep on keeping on and I like that. Manny was in the game tonight - he hit a homerun and had a great double to knock in two runners. So that means my fantasy team should have lots of points today - Yay!

I wanna go to Dodgertown.

Ciao Y'all

One Word -- Depp!

I ventured out to see Public Enemies only to see that face. Well maybe to see how Depp - who portrayed John Dillinger - would do in a part once played by Warren Oates.

The story was jumpy and spotty in places but the action - if you're into action - was worth the ticket price. I frankly was taken by the love scenes. I do believe the best Hollywood love scenes by far, are the ones that are implied. Hats off to director, Michael Mann, who put together a wonderful film about the glory days of bank robberies.

Why see this flick? Let me make this very clear - Michael Mann directed Johnny Depp and Christian Bale (Melvin Purvis - the GI who took down Dillinger and eventually killed himself). If you haven't seen it - GO as I did to an afternoon matinee. What fun it was to sit there with my popcorn and dream about getting rich by knocking off a few banks. Then the movie was over and i remembered that the banks don't have any money. So I came back home and got back to work on l'Amore designs.

Ciao Y'all

Worth Forwarding

Go Hug Your "Michael" by Maya Angelou

Yesterday I cried watching the Michael Jackson memorial. I cried for a little black boy who felt the world didn't understand him.

I cried for a little black boy who spent his adulthood chasing his childhood. And I thought about all the young black boys out there who may feel that the world doesn’t understand them.

The ones who feel that the world does not understand their baggy jeans, their swagger, their music, their anger, their struggles, their fears or the chip on their shoulder. I worry that my son, may too, one day feel lonely in a wide, wide world.

I cried for young children of all colors who may live their life feeling like a misfit, feeling like no one understands their perspective, or their soul. What a burden to carry.

As a mother, I cried for Katherine Jackson because no mother should ever bury a child. Period. And I think about all the pain, tears and sleepless nights that she must have endured seeing her baby boy in inner pain, seeing him struggle with his self- esteem, and his insecurities and to know that he often felt unloved. Even while the world loved him deeply. How does it feel to think that the unconditional love we give as mothers just isn’t enough to make our children feel whole?

I wonder if she still suffers thinking, “What more could I have done?” Even Moms of music legends aren’t immune to Mommy guilt, I suppose.

When Rev. Al Sharpton (who always delivers one “Awesome” funeral speech), said to Michael’s children “ Your Daddy was not Strange . . . It was strange what your daddy had to deal with” I thought of all of the strange things of the world that my children would have to deal with. Better yet, the things I hope they won’t ever have to deal with anymore.

And as a mother raising a young black boy, I feel recommitted and yet a little confused as to how to make sure my son is sure enough within himself to take on the world. Especially a “strange” one. To love himself enough to know that even when the world doesn’t understand you, tries to force you into its mold or treats you unkindly, you are still beautiful, strong, and Black. How do I do that?

Today, I’m taking back “childhood” as an inalienable right for every brown little one. In a world that makes children into “booty-Shakin”, mini- adults long before their time, I’m reclaiming the playful, the innocent, run-around outside, childhood as the key ingredient in raising confident adults. Second, I will not rest until my little black boy, My Michael, knows that his broad nose is beautiful, his chocolaty brown skin is beautiful, and his thick hair is beautiful. And nothing or no one, can take that away from him.

Now, ain’t we Bad, ain’t we Black, and ain’t we Beautiful!

Maya Angelou
July, 2009

After two weeks of daily tears and then every other day and then no more sudden down pours, a month and some days later I proudly share this piece of inspiration from the wordful Maya Angelou. I hope it brings you peace.

Ciao Y'all

Maybe it Was My Day to Watch Them

Because baseball matters -- while taking care of business for l'Amore Intimo I was unable to watch their games from Sunday through yesterday. Well apparently they lost three to the Cardinals in my absent, but as soon as I returned to the bench, they beat the Cardinals to keep from getting swept and they're winning tonight against the Braves, as I watch the recording from earlier today.

Maybe it's time to take my favorite little leaguer to a game.

Ciao Y'all

Gregorysm is So Much Fun

Gregory exclaimed yesterday when he walked into house --

"It's hot as satan in here!"

I thought to myself "does he mean hotter then hell?" and then I remembered who was talking. He then went on to add --

"Do you know how to operate a fan?"

I thought to myself "that's a rhetorical question?" and then I remembered who was talking, and chose this time to defend myself with "you weren't here and I am fine like this, but if you want to pay the electric bill we can turn on every fan in the place and the AC". Needless to say, I got no more lip, but did eventually turn the ac on - because it was hot as satan in here!

FUNNY

Ciao Y'all

Words from the Wise

The less you associate with some people, the more your life will

improve. Any time you tolerate mediocrity in others, it increases your

mediocrity. An important attribute in successful people is their

impatience with negative thinking and negative acting people. As you

grow, your associates will change. Some of your friends will not want

you to go on. They will want you to stay where they are. Friends that

don't help you climb will want you to crawl. Your friends will stretch

your vision or choke your dream. Those that don't increase you will

eventually decrease you.



Consider this:

Never receive counsel from unproductive people. Never discuss your

problems with someone incapable of contributing to the solution, because

those who never succeed themselves are always first to tell you how. Not

everyone has a right to speak into your life. You are certain to get the

worst of the bargain when you exchange ideas with the wrong person.

Don't follow anyone who's not going anywhere.



With some people you spend an evening: with others you invest it. Be

careful where you stop to inquire for directions along the road of life.

Wise is the person who fortifies his life with the right friendships. If

you run with wolves, you will learn how to howl. But, if you associate

with eagles, you will learn how to soar to great heights.

"A mirror reflects a man's face, but what he is really like is shown by

the kind of friends he chooses."



The simple but true fact of life is that you become like those with whom

you closely associate - for the good and the bad.



Note: Be not mistaken. This is applicable to family as well as friends.

Yes...do love, appreciate and be thankful for your family, for they will

always be your family no matter what. Just know that they are human

first and though they are family to you, they may be a friend to someone

else and will fit somewhere in the criteria above.



"In Prosperity Our Friends Know Us. In Adversity We Know Our friends."



"Never make someone a priority when you are only an option for them."

"If you are going to achieve excellence in big things, you develop the

habit in little matters. Excellence is not an exception, it is a

prevailing attitude.".. .................. ...



Colin Powell

To my readers - after reading this speech made by Colin Powell I wanted to share it.

Ciao Y'all

It's The Team

What is the success of the Dodgers?

Matt Kemp scored all four runs in Sunday's game - that has only been done by one other player in MLB history, and that guy is no longer playing.

The Dodgers are now 25 games over 500 and 8 and 1/2 games in front of the 2nd place San Francisco Giants.

My fantasy team - the finishers - is in second place and having in Manny and Juan Pierre on my team is the best thing ever, wish I could have all the Dodgers - I would definitely be in 1st place.

And to top all that off - My favorite little leaguer is at one of the best youth baseball camps there is.

There is baseball and then there are those other sports. - Ok ok, I'll stop being so dramatic. I'm still a NASCAR fan and I am a diehard Redskins fan, but the Dodgers are true blue to me.

Ciao Y'all

Who's in Right Field?

No - who's on first! I introduced this comedy act to my favorite little leaguer and he laughed and laughed, but keenly remarked that right field was the only position not mentioned. Youtube.com really connects the present with the past.

Click to enjoy courtesy of YouTube.com.

Ciao Y'all

He Made It!

The test which was not a final for Gregory was ok after all. After all the worry and a giant cram session with himself he said he felt he got 7 correct. Hoping that was 7 out of 10 and not 7 out of 100, but he's content and trying to stay above water like everyone else, so I'll leave it alone.

The Dodgers are back in play tonight! Good thing - I was starting to have withdrawals. What can I say, I miss my boys in blue when they are not playing.

Ciao Y'all

Statistics

Are statistics boring, real or just plain ol' relative? Well, we will soon find out. The prince of exhibit will soon be taking a statistics' final today and is not a happy camper. One might say he' feeling a bit finished. Bad thing is, I remember not thinking that my creative mind really cared a hootin' hyena about this course. So how do you cram for something you don't give a fig about?

That wasn't a rhetorical question - but a shout out to anyone who understands this subject and how to study for it! All I can do right now is hope for the best - pray for the best.

I'm sure gregorysm's day - tomorrow - will be a gem.

Ciao Y'all

#1 Team in Baseball!

I can believe it! Talking about my BLUE CREW, because baseball matters! They just got finished taking Milwaukee down in 10. Don't get 'em in extra innings - they'll beat you every time. I believe the boys hit 5 homers tonight - one was a granny by Matt Kemp, who also made an awesome catch for the 3rd out in the bottom of the tenth! I say he's a keeper. but in my heart I believe they all are keepers! They give me hours of enjoyment every season, win or lose - this season they just happen to be winning a lot! 24 games over 500! That's ridiculous!

Go BLUE!

Ciao Y'all!

"Prince Exhibit"

Yes, this is how Gregory introduced himself as he walked into the house yesterday after a long day. He makes me laugh. Laughing is a very good thing!

Here's to you most honorable "Prince Exhibit".

Does everyone remember what an exhibit is? Let's review gregorysms. An exhibit is someone who has been over tasked and most of the time looks like it. Over tasked from working two jobs and going to school, over tasked from dealing with life's issues big and small, over tasked or embarrassed by your own chosen actions, over tasked by someone finishing you off. Exhibit.

So Gregory says he is the prince of exhibits. That's funny!

Ciao Y'all

"Most charities supported by a Pop Star"

If there was ever a doubt about the compassion Michael Jackson not only held in his heart but acted upon here's what I learned about this beautiful and talented man today - he holds the record for the most charities supported by a pop star! Some of us talk the talk but few walk the walk.

Check out what this site has to say about the greatest performer EVER. AllMichaelJackson.com

The memorial service is beautiful, and as everyone speaks all I hear is what I know deep in my heart - Michael Jackson will be forever loved and remembered by millions.. His favorite song, a song written by Charlie Chaplin - SMILE. He truly did demonstrate the love of God through his talent and giving. I love you Michael.

Ciao Y'all

CRY

Michael Jackson's memorial is tomorrow and I wasn't one of the lucky 17,500 to get a ticket to attend - I will watch it on television. But I was listening to his "Invincible" cd and remembering how I enjoyed every song on this cd. Listen to the words of his music. My favorite little leaguer was listening to the words of this song CRY. He actually listens to the words. Any way he remarked "he did do it by himself - change the world". Listening to the song myself and hearing my baby silently speak these words brought tears to my eyes.

There are plenty of naysayers, haters, judgmental ones who will overlook so much good this man brought into the world, blessed with the talent he shared, but I don't have anything to say to those people. Listen to the words of this song - CRY - watch the video, enjoy.

Ciao Y'all

Music video can be found on youtube.com

Linked

My cousin and her long time friend have a store stocked with collectibles on Ebay.com called EMLO Collectibles. I was personally amazed when I saw all of these very interesting items. Everything is nicely displayed and frankly I believe it's worth the click. Check it out when you have time to browse - you may see something you've been looking for.

Ciao Y'all

Yay!

We did it! www.lamoreintimo.com is up and running! Now to figure out how to direct traffic to the website.

I actually got to relax today. Sat and watched the Dodgers against the Padres. OMGoodness! They were winning with a big lead at the top of the 9th. By the bottom of the 9th and 4 pitchers later the game was tied. They finally won it with a homerun hit by Loney #7 - the cute first baseman - and Weaver who held the Padres during their last ups. Yes baseball matters, and that was an exciting nail biter!

We can cover the male influence and Gregorysm's Day with this one sentence from you know who (yes Gregory) "I don't know what I'm doing". And on that note, because my Mother taught me if you can't say something nice... - I will sign out.

Ciao Y'all

When Life is too Busy

I have come to the realization that running your your business doesn't allot for much sleep. To even think about getting in the bed at a reasonable hour is insane - I guess. All I know is that I find it very hard to wind down after a day of production. I now need to settle in to the routine, and learn how to take time for me. Juggling l'Amore Intimo and my Chase's schedule on top of life is a tall order. But I'm smiling because it is a joyful time. Maybe no sleep, but when sleep does come, it is restful, peaceful, nice dreams, refreshing.

I did get to enjoy the July 4th fireworks from the rooftop of my building. Really cool! Happy in Los Angeles.

Ciao Y'all!

FYI

For anyone who wants to know how the Man in the Mirror "gave" in proper order -- click here for OMG's take on it.

Wolfe Blitzer said that Michael Jackson is worth more dead than alive - exact quote not heard. But this to me was a very tacky, disrespectful, rude and unnecessary thing to say, especially considering the tragedy behind MJ's death.

Work awaits me.

Ciao Y'all

The Man in the Mirror (cont)

Funny how I knew Michael Jackson's passing would come up in church this weekend. From the pulpit. The pastor had a video team out on Thursday at the VA cemetery to shoot a video for the 4th of July spectacular the church sponsors. He said that they could not shoot after a whole fleet of helicopters were hovering above the are. He found out about Michael Jackson was the reason for the helicopters and decided they helicopters would be there a lot longer than they had time to wait and thought it best to move somewhere else.

Later that day - Thursday - Pastor was thinking about MJ and posted on his blog about the entertainer, asking for comments about MJ's life. He said he got comments that were good and comments that were not good, but the comments that he deemed true were the ones of those who casted no stones. The comments from those who said that we don't know Michael Jackson's reality - only God knows that whole story and judgement will be His, not ours. At the time of the harvest we will know but will be too concerned about our own souls.

We should be concerned about our own souls. The Bible tells us this, time and time again. Read it for yourself as so many a Bible teaching pastor have urged. I for one believe it to be the greatest booked ever penned. That's my truth as I look at the (wo)man in the mirror.

Don't blast MJ in these hours, that's disrespectful, because I can bet he never blasted you. Don't throw stones, because I can bet he would not have thrown stones at you. Don't speak of what you don't know for your ownself to be true - as in spreading rumors and as in gossip - because I bet he would have never spread rumors or gossiped about you. Don't fear for his lost soul that you don't truly know is lost, because it's your own soul's fate you should be questioning. Check your life. Will you be ready at the harvest?

Ciao Y'all

The Man in the Mirror (cont)

I promised to post a couple of photos that were given to me way long ago - after high school - by a good friend of mine. Markie had this crush on me in high school - I didn't give him the time of day because he was a year younger and in high school that was too young for a girl. But he waited until after high school to catch up with me. By this time, I was working on my seeming life long dream to move to Los Angeles and marry Michael Jackson. This was my goal. I was working and saving money and checking off the blocks to my goal of moving to Hollywood. Not only to marry Michael but because I fell in love with Hollywood when I was 15 and my mother brought me to this place. Not so much star struck, but everything struck. The vibe of southern Cali, L.A. LA LA land. I knew I would one day return.

Any way, Markie's father worked for Capital Records and Markie got me tickets to the Victory Tour concert - I took my cousin Kenny and a young friend of mine - Sherry. We had so much fun! I had on a short leather skirt and fishnets and the glove and we walked the wrong way in the stadium, headed to the backstage. Was told by the security guard that I looked nice but I still had to go the other way. Wasn't trying to get backstage - I was honestly lost in that big stadium with two starstruck teens. We got to our seats and the show is nothing but a blur. A screaming blur. The whole time on our feet - screaming!!! Best show I ever saw! I know it must have been because I remember everyone around me screaming and crying - even my cousin - and I thought it was phenomenal.

Still trying to win my heart, Markie gave me the two pictures and told me that when I got to LA I could contact his father, and he would definitely get me an intro to MJ. Markie had done so much for me, but hadn't revealed he had gotten married right out of high school and had two boys. His mother called me one day to inform me of this fact and that was that. I still had my dream to move to L.A. and I finally made it here. Been here now for 16 years and love it.

The photos have been in my car (all of my cars) the whole time I've lived here.

Maybe I thought that if I met MJ one day I could have him sign them. Life's funny.

Watching the special on tv while working yesterday brought lots of tears as well as laughter and joy to my heart. Lots of questions about what happened. Thoughts about prescription drugs that are so readily available and seem to be more harmful than good. Knowing that at my weight I have a hard time with prescription painkillers and don't take them. Could be just genetics because my Mother can't take them either.

Unfortunately not even in death will they leave MJ alone. The haters, the gossipers, the theys who never even met the man will spin things this way and that way. The bitter evils. But I will remember Michael as that beautiful little boy who I thought I would one day marry -- I know, like every other little girl back in the day.

My sincere thoughts of peace and love are sent with my prayers to the Jackson family. Michael Jackson will always be the greatest performer there ever was! RIP Man in the Mirror.

Ciao Y'all

The Man in the Mirror

Like many of his fans, I am in shock and completely lost for words. I will post a personal photo that I was given of Michael Jackson and Stevie Wonder, by the son of a music producer, tomorrow. I will have more to say tomorrow. I hate this foggy feeling inside my head -- and hopefully that will go away tomorrow.

My heartfelt prayers go out to the Jackson family. I am so sorry for your loss.

Please tell someone you love them.

Ciao Y'all

My Favorite Little Leaguer

They grow way too fast. Time flies when you're having fun - that's for sure. Gregory once called this kids the best looking person in the house. He's been called the president since he was very young - around 3. Even a complete stranger called him the president and she knew not the family secret. The nicest person I have ever had the pleasure of meeting.

The photographer who took this photo once remarked that all he had to do was stand there to get good shots. Whenever working as an 8x10 (actor) he always gets the close-up, without asking. Anyone who has ever met him think highly of him, simply adore him, or can't get enough of his winning personality. Once a director made us wait around for 3 hours after he had wrapped just to say a warm goodbye, (I thought we were being punked.) He's my biggest fan - my greatest ally - and my hero. God has truly blessed my life because I know him.

There's more --

One season his batting average was 486. That year he also had the most stolen bases, and the most RBI's. This year he was walked 25 times in 16 games. One coach commented that he would love to have 20 just like him -- someone who can take directions, and make adjustments.

Gregory calls him "the boy". When he was a baby, Gregory announced to everyone in the department store that "the cat peed on the baby's blanket!" Gregory also realized and put it in the most memorable way "I used to be the baby". Hence when the gregorysms began - Gregory's the used to be the baby.

Ciao Y'all

Photo courtesy of Robert Kazandjian -- Kazandjian Photography (the only photographer I trust my 8x10's to). Find him in Burbank, CA. This is a silly fun photo, Robert took - my baby doesn't wear glasses, but he's as cute as a bug

Happy Birthday!

To someone who I love very much -- today is his birthday and may I say -- best wishes for many more birthdays to come. May you be always blessed.

Ciao Y'all

"We all owe God a death"

When asked what The Taking of Pelham 123 was about I simply answered, Denzel Washington and John Travolta. To me it didn't matter what the film was about because the two brilliant actors starring would be worth the price of the free ticket to see this film. Don't hate - I got the free admission due to a mess up the first time I tried to see this movie. Any way, I was bound and determined to see this movie yesterday, a relaxing Sunday afternoon.

WHOA! Not sure if it compares to the original (never saw it), but this remake can stand all by itself. The story is good. I'm not buying the motive, or it's very unclear. So convince yourself - it is what it is. The acting is worthy to be used in an acting 101 class on this is how you do it. The cinematography is amazing. Sometimes I was not clear what I was watching. Some of the shots were out of the ordinary and hard to believe the way the intercuts were so perfectly cut. A man movie with a certain something - gorgeous men - for the woman.

I say go go go to see this movie. Make sure you get the right ticket to the right show though.

Ciao Y'all

movie poster courtesy of imdb.com

When They Can Reach You...

I think Big on Sex in the City was on to something when he complained about his lady interest being able to reach him but he was never able to reach her. That point which he vented to his ex Carrie and her new boyfriend Aiden was a whole other story.

But truly y'all -- what does it mean when they can reach you and you can never reach them? One sided. One Way. Una Via. Or maybe, take your as... you know on. IDK people. IDK. Probably just living the dream or a new one from Gregory - getting a ticket to a festival. One ticket please.

Ciao Y'all

It is True! Baseball Matters

True BLUE! Dodger Blue! As Gregory says, the fastest way to get back your ethos is to admit you have no ethos. I have no ethos. YAY! Now I can get it back.

After the past few days of dealing with a bipolar personality (I survived - no applause just throw money) I was calmed by this fact -- I LOVE THE DODGERS! I am true blue. I thought my Mother's adoration for football's Washington Redskins ran too deep, but home safe and sound I watch the faces of my boys in blue and I know all of them - I love all of them. Anyone can be up to bat and I could sit in the chair next to the veteran announcer - Chick - and tell you something about that player.

Oh to be a well off entrepreneur -- I will own season tickets - the best I can get. One day soon boys. One day soon.

Ciao Y'all

"I don't know how that works"

Jamie Foxx deserves another academy award for this film - The Soloist. His portrayal of this more than gifted musician dealing with schizophrenia is remarkable. Robert Downing Jr. is at his best - in his element - back in the saddle - ready to roll -- and everything else that keeps him on screen for us to marvel over. He's kinda cute too. I look forward to seeing him in his upcoming movie about Sherlock Holmes.

His character comes full circle from being a selfish out for himself award winning reported, to being a unconditional loving friend to Jamie Foxx's character, his on-screen ex, and himself. Just learning to love himself. As I hear it, the friendship depicted in this film still carries on today, patiently one day at a time. As is life.

I saw this film a while back - but writing about it was not something I wanted to rush. I am still taking it in, and I am not sure if it's still playing. What I am sure of is buying the DVD when it's released, to have to watch whenever I feel like I am losing my mind. It's a beautiful flick. Not sure what was up with the constant change in the release date - but yes, it was worth the wait.

Ciao Y'all

movie poster courtesy of imdb.com

"Matt Lauer Can Suck It!"

That line spurted out of the mouth of Will Ferrell's character - Dr. Rick Marshall - in "Land of the Lost". I had to go see it. My brother even went to see it and he took my 9 year old niece. Not really kid friendly but my niece catches bugs for a hobby, has been watching the CHUCKY movies since birth, challenges "do you want a piece of me!", and although very light complected, the spawn of an African American and a Latina, announces "I am not white!" She is something. But back to the movie --

I went to see this movie because the tv series was one of my favorite. Word from the wise - if you're going to see it because of the nostalgic tv series memories -- DON'T! I went to a very late show and the theater was half full but the laughter was plenty loud - it's Will Ferrell, what do you expect? The silliness is worth the ticket stub, if you've had one of those long weeks. Thinking though that summer gets way better from here.

Matt Lauer is kinda cute in his cameo and his hair is looking a bit thicker these days. Cool.

Ciao Y'all

Movie poster courtesy of www.imdb.com

SUMMER HEAT

This should prove to be a hot one.  Gregory had a new crush and has completely lost all his ethos.  He watches  shows like "The Hills" and "Gossip Girl" to learn to appreciate them as he puts it.  Says it's "good crap" - an oxymoron if I ever heard one.  

Even in the business of my day I'm sure to catch a new word or phrase or just the intonation changing the meaning of a word or phrase from Gregory - the graduate - for gregorysm day.  That's today!

Ciao Y'all

Andre the Giant Dodger

Baseball indeed matters to Andre Ethier - click on his blog from this page.  Friday's game ended in the win column thanks to Mr. Ethier, who hit a long double, ripping in 2 RBIs.  The end result after a hard fought game against the Phillies was 4 to 2.  

And if that wasn't a thrill of victory moment, Ethier than comes back tonight and in extra innings powerhouses a game ending homer!  The end score still against the Phillies was 3 to 2.  

NICE HOME STAND BOYS

Ciao Y'all

A Life Wasted - Follow up

A few post ago wrote about my sister-in-laws nephew from Charles County Maryland who was stabbed to death.  His funeral was held this past Tuesday.  The school he attended held a car wash to raise funds for the family.  The fool who stabbed Antonio was 17 as well.  A thug who came up from Florida to play football in Maryland - his uncle took him in.  This dude played on the same football team as my all state quarterback nephew who graduated to years ago.  The killer said the motive was robbery -- so now he's under arrest for murder and attempted robbery.  Dummy.

To me it's senseless.

Ciao Y'all

"We're graduating from junior college -- we don't know jack!"

Because we love Gregory and gregorysms - let me announce that this beautiful young man is graduating from College of the Canyons.  Yes as he has noted, it is a junior college.  But no, they don't know jack.  They know much more after these two years - one of which, for Gregory, was completed while still in high school.  Gregory is vocal, talented, caring, and beautiful.  I salute him as he completes this chapter and moves to a new one at Cal State Los Angeles.  

Leave your comments and congrats for him right here.

Ciao Y'all

A Dog's Life

You ever think about the life of a dog?  A lot of people own them, and a lot of people saw the movie Marley.  As I am truly exhausted and wonder just how I will get through splicing together my niece's prom dress, I wonder about the thoughts of my dog - COCO.  

A week ago or so - perhaps two now she did act a bit peculiar for a few days leading up to the earthquake here.  Can animals predict these things because their senses are more sensitive?  Coco always looks like she has a smile on her face, accept when I am down - she's right beside me with sad eyes.  Do they really know how you feel and empathize with you?  But of course the best thing about my dog - and I think most dogs - when I come home even after being out for 5 minutes or less, she greats me like she's been missing me for a month of Sundays.  Do they really miss you like that or do they simply have no concept of time?  

Whatever it is about dogs -- and I still won't let my guard down out on that census bureau route, those dogs were no Cocos -- I think we can take a lesson in love, loyalty, compassion, and real friendship from them.

Let me know your dog stories.

Ciao Y'all

"I'll Be Back"

That's of course, the line made famous by Arnold the Governor, and it's been in every Terminator flick.  On a day when baseball matters I opted to miss seeing the Dodgers play live to go to a matinee to hear John Conner played quite well by Christian Bale say "I'll be back" to his wife - Kate Conner played by Bryce Dallas Howard.  

With the iffy write up about hoe the film was written during the writers' strike and more than likely wouldn't be good.  In spite of the mellow drama, soap style acting near the end, I felt it was quite good.  Sybernet was up to its tricks., and machines were taking over the world.   Honestly never caught on to the whole machines becoming calculating and waging war against their maker - the humans.  Lots of action and cg and other special effects.  So although this movie is full of much of what Arnie said in the first movie -- I like the cliches --  it's worth going to see just to watch the lone sweet little girl name Star, played by Jadagrace Berry.  Kin to Halle?  IDK but I guess I could ask a very close friend of mine who would for sure know the answer.

Ciao Y'all

Movie poster courtesy of imdb.com May 2009.